I have other issues to discuss here, but, first, I had to pay tribute to John. Yes, he would have been 70 years old this year, just a few days ago. Had he not been killed who knows? What music would he have given the world, us, me in the last thirty years. We will never know. But, suffice to say, we miss you John...we have for a very long time.

Now, onto new business. The Rock And The Hard Place. Guess where I am? I won't go into detail but I am there and I have no f***ing idea what to do. I'm frightened because my world will soon come crashing down around me. I see it coming and there isn't a GD thing I can do about it.

So...with that, I remain,

Faithfully yours,

The NightFly

ps: Maybe I should stop getting up in the morning!

Amnesia

My brother sent me a song tonight. I don't believe he knew what it meant to me.

Yo lo quierdo....I think that is what the singer is singing...

I do know this, he is saying, "I don't remember"...

But, I do. I remember. I remember all of the friends I have lost, through attrition (sp?), because of what I am...I have a disease. It's not catching, it's just a disease that hurts the people around me.

But I remember you all...I love you very much, I miss you very much and I hurt...my heart hurts because I don't have you in my life anymore.

Because of my disease.

I'm sorry. I apologize. I am sorry and I can never take it back.

I can only think of you, love you, remember you...I can't even hope that you will come back to me someday. Because I know you never will.

But I can do what I can do today and step one foot in front of the other. One day at a time.

I'm sorry. I am getting healthy now...

I wish I was healthy then...maybe we would still be friends.

For my life, still ahead, pity me.

Hiya!

Here I am again...

Someone I thought was going to be a "person of interest", as they put it in the crime shows...well, I am alone again!

I have very special feelings for this woman...and I want to be with her.

I don't know why I can't be...

I love...

Just a pool of tears

I am back...today is my birthday!

I heard from many people...people that I like and that I LOVE...

I still feel like Tommy....

There is no chance, no outside operation...
All hope lies with him and not with me...
Imagine, though, the shock from isolation
When he suddenly can hear and speak and see....

Go to the mirror, boy!

Listening to you, I get the music,
Gazing at you, I get the heat,
Following you, I climb the mountains,
I get excitement at your feet!

Right behind you, I see the millions,
On you, I see the glory,
From you, I get opinions,
From you I get the story...

What is happening in his head?

Oh, I wish I knew...I wish I knew!

Apparently, I have been tweeting, twixting, FB'ing, or whatever else on my other blog...(Yeah, go find it! :D)

I still have things to say, whether or not you like them, that's okay...but I have to get them out...when I'm happy, when I'm sad or angry or whatever...it's gotta come out.

Yeah, I am The NightFly, that...no matter what time I get up in the morning, will never change. And yes, I like to think that I AM..."Twenty Minutes Into The Future".

Big changes coming soon for The NightFly...

More later...

I send my love, my hope and my dreams for all 12 of you who read this!

The Fly!

Ps: Oh, sorry, no really cool pic tonight!

Come Talk To Me...

Sometimes...and I know I use that phrase way too often, but...Sometimes, with all of the technology we have around us, (text me, e-mail me, tweet me, FB me, Twixt me, F*** me!) we just need to hear a voice on the phone.

We need that little bit of contact, especially since we don't have face-to-face contact very much anymore and, when we do, it's brief and constrained. I realize we are all "Twenty Minutes Into The Future" but, come on, look me in the eye, take my hand, smile at me and be my friend...as scared as I am of you, don't be afraid of me. I won't hurt you...I will be your friend, if you will give me the chance.

Call me...my lines are open...

The NightFly will answer.

NightFly In Confusion

The NightFly is in confusion...

I have one faction in my life telling me that I have to change my life, drastically. Another faction telling me that I want to change my life. And then there is me...not wanting change in my life...I dislike change greatly!

Do I follow my heart or my head?

Fear brought me to where I am right now. Fear brought me down this horrible spiral. Fear...is all I feel these days...fear and depression.

I have a darkness in my life. I have a light in my life. Then I have the grey in between.

I know which way to go. I know what I have to do. But that path, everything being said, is the hardest thing I will ever have to do. Others have done it...I can, too.

Will sobriety follow? Will serenity follow? Will happiness follow?

The NightFly wonders about all of these things...